kate+speaks

btw,

tomorrow is fat tuesday, so if you observe lent… get your gluttony on. march 01 through april 16 is sounding like a long time, its a month and a half… so go crazy tomorrow.

for the record:

i love jeffrey. even though sometimes i feel i’m babysitting. sometimes his “playfulness” and my ocassional short fuse do not mix. i will blow up, but not because i’m a bitch, but because once in a while i just have no patience. still, he is my favorite.

its monday. the weather sucks. i only got two hours of sleep. i have no patience.

don’t do anything stupid.

it is a beautiful day…

i walked to work and smelled some really great bbq. its almost that time of the year. its great. daylight savings is april 2nd, mark your calendars. =)

da vinci code stills:

opens may 06

i can’t believe its already a movie. i just read it two summers ago.

ohh and pirates of the caribbean isn’t coming out until july 7th.

the human body is not meant to pull all-nighters. even with caffine in my system my body had to crash around 4 am. i was supposed to wake up to finish some work but i ended up sleeping in too long and was late to class.

call me weaksauce, i need my sleep.

ohh yes, please buy me all of vinroc’s “so much soul” albums, there are four. but, for some reason i can’t find #3. i guess vol 3. is shortkut. i have no idea. someone find it for me and buy them, they are only $10 each and i will be so happy. hah hah.

beauty to my ears.

thank you dj vinroc for this:

music is the only real thing that can make me sit down and actually DO WORK, and if i’m really feeling the stuff, its even better.

technical difficulties.

i honestly wish i could blame my lack of drive/motivation/inspiration to the tv, myspace + other pointless websites, and fatigue. BUT I CAN’T.

i’ve realized what it is.

it is so unbelievably easy to remain stagnant, to just accept where you are and what you are capable of. i have a terrible habit of telling myself, “someday, you’ll be great at what you are doing.” notice i use the keyword “someday,” not today… not now… not anytime soon…. i’m just kidding myself. i don’t push or challenge myself enough to make any major strides in my education as a designer.

i play my shit safe… all the damn time. ALL THE TIME. its so true it is ridiculous.

the stupidity of it all is that i know what i need to be doing. i know this. BUT I DON’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

yes i suck, and i need to change.

in other news:

i chopped of some hair and had my hair intentionally damaged by bleach. i now look like a mix between cruella devil, a skunk, and rogue from x-men. i love it all except for this one huge chunk of platinum blonde hair that falls to the right.

don’t make fun of me.

I’M APPLYING FOR GRADUATION!!!

…for next spring though, you gotta do it a year in advance. STILL, thats BIG. big things. big things.

i’m gonna finish and move back to where i belong, my beloved bay area.

yesterday i got “academically advised” and the “adviser” said that i’m DONE with g.e. after this semester. it would be great if that were true but i highly doubt that she is right. “advisers” always seem to get shit wrong, thats why i haven’t seen one since ohlone in 2002/3. i refuse to get their “advice.” i will go back in a couple of months to see if another “adviser” tells me the same thing. if i am done with pointless g.e. classes i will be estatic.

by the way… i dropped ancient rome, cause ain’t no one ruining my fuggin GPA.

ghettotalk from a girl who cares about her gpa. peace! happy springtime!

ohh yea. today i told myself i would laugh out loud to all the girls who went to school without jackets cause its freezin. BREEZIES, check the forecast next time!

valentines day is wackkkkkk. generally speaking.

i always thought it was. i hated valentines day all throughout high school, i distinctly remember cutting that day senior year. well, who wants to see girls holding bouquets and balloons when your ass is single? bitterness was my motive back in the day.

now i just feel that its a day forced upon everyone. jeff is somewhat forced to try (keyword “try”) to be romantic. i don’t expect much from his lame-self. just kidding. still though, i don’t find it necessary that people gauge their love for eachother through material items or an expensive night out.

i’m just buying my luhver fresh baked cookies. i’d bake them myself but… i’m not the baking type.

another reason to go to europe:

personally, i am not a fan of fast food. however, i do have my occasional taco bell binges, and i have a weakness for french fries. still, i’ve grown a thick skin to avoid fast food joints. BUT, germany has this chain called “nordsee,” which i thought was freaking amazing. they serve seafood, but not like long john silvers… i will go back to germany any day just to eat at a nordsee.