kate+speaks

i’m never ready for class on monday… school is impossible for me. f_ck i’m an idiot. ohh well, i treasure my sleep.

for those of you who think “cathy” is an automatic nick/short-name for “catherine” you’re wrong. MY NAME IS NOT “CATHY,” its “CATHERINE.” get it right fools.

i want lazy sundays.

bad day.

sometimes i think i should just become a registered dietitian. then i wouldn’t have to pull shit out of my brain every night, spend hours on the computer when all i’m doing just moving a few elements around on the computer–which a normal eye would not be able to understand anyways.

graphic design is a f_cking hard major. some people think all we do is make stuff on a computer, but its hard, its time-consuming. many days i wish i could just go home, read a book, and memorize information like the rest of these students trying to get their educations. its so simplistically linear. read this… study this… memorize this… then we’ll take a multiple choice test. some days i’d rather write a paper than what i do, because its given. with projects you start from scratch, you start from scratch and you produce a piece until you “think” its finished and you get stuck all the damn time.

in other news:

i’d like to thank BET for airing replays of the wayan’s brothers show at 2-4 am (or something like that). i forgot how funny it used to be, plus i’ve seen every episode of fresh prince probably 6 times.

so i’ve finally lost all of my college freshman 15. remember those days when we used to order sourdough jack meals with curly fries, barqs root beer and extra house ranch sauce on the side??? or go out at on the weekends only to end up at dennys and order 2,000 calorie meals??? never again.

why is it that the wrong girls always have their mid-drift/love-handle region exposed? its probably the hardest area to tone/get rid of jiggly stuff, yet hella girls think they can expose it. NO, ITS NOT SEXY IF IT SHAKES WHEN YOU WALK. at least i don’t think so, and i will freely admit when i think shit is hot. the “love handle” area is NOT an appealing area for a lot of women. girls need to stop it already. i’m only saying that cause the weather is beautiful and a lot more skin is showing.

also, happy five year first-date anniversary to jeffrox. two days after breaking up with his ex-girlfriend he asked me to the movies w/ my cousin. yeah, it sounds scandalous right? technically its the five year anniversary of the three of us as best friends as well, so we’re all going on a date later. jeffrox & junbug i love you both, even though you guys point and laugh at me 75% of the time.

one more month of this madness called school… i’m tired of this shhhhhhhiiiz.

then i’m referring back to the “101 reasons why summer is going to be siiiiiiiiiiiiick.”

i hate my hormones.

in the past week i have:

-gotten into a stupid fight with jeff.
-declared to my parents that i no longer wish to be a member of the catholic church. which i later took back (its a long foolish story).
-cried 3x.
-asked jeff to marry me about five times, each time i told him i would get him a plastic ring as soon as i could.
-eaten everything i have craved in small portions.

-gotten my period.

i’m psycho, you don’t want none of this.

for those of you who are down with REX NAVARETTE. he’s gonna be @ the sacramento punchline. wednesdays are 2 for 1 with college ids.

OHH YES, I FORGOT…

THIS RAIN NEEDS TO F_CKING QUIT.

i want to go outside to take pictures while the grass is super saturated green. i want to take my cameras out to play. also, i’m still freezing my ass off in the month of april.

freaking QUIT already. I HATE YOU. STUPID RAIN.

roAR. roAr. RoAr. RoAr.

yesterday i didn’t have an umbrella so on the way from the work to the car i wore a garbage bag as a shirt and another one as a bonnet. people act like they never seen that shit before. haven’t they seen garden state? they better ask somebody.

when i walked up to the car jeff busted out laughing, but i didn’t think it was that funny. i was just trying to stay dry.

i’m so tired of the word “organic” to describe something in design. its so overdone right now.

ANNOUNCEMENT: I AM STAYING AWAY FROM DOWNTOWN SAN JOSE FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKENDS. its hella pathetic that i’ve been there EVERY WEEKEND since sometime in february. i’m staying home and doing homework this weekend, and next week i’m actually going to act catholic for once and observe the holy weekend. we’re gonna miss “dynamite soul” because its on good friday. THAT’S ONE HELL OF A SACRAFICE MAN. its alright though, cause i’ll be there in may! hahaha, i already planned it for jeffrox bday. muAAAAAHAhaha.

i was watching “scratch” for project “research.” hahaha. i love it. it totally distracted me from doing much real work though. i love how the bay is such a big part of the scene, it makes me proud.

supposedly aloe blacc is going to be at capital garage on wednesday. i’m going to check, and if he is, i’m going to see him. did you know that he can sing in spanish? i read that he covered “ordinary people” in spanish, but i have yet to find it. he’s gotten really good reviews on it. i must find it, or better yet, i will ask him in person on wednesday.

common is going to be in davis on sunday, the 30th; and the roots + talib kweli are playing in the city on sat, june 10th. great stuff. i’m excited.

i have come to believe that i had a “other-worldly” experience while walking alone on campus today. it was a very serene moment, out of absolutely nowhere i smelled a pleasant perfume, no one was around (or passed the area), and it was drizzling. for some odd reason, i decided to take a mental note of the moment then and there. honestly, it said: “smelled something floral out of nowhere. it was pleasant.” so when jeff asked me if i smelled random perfume today, i was weirded out. its just too big of a co-incidence. jeff has hypothesized that it was his lola just visiting. she visited him too. i’m glad we finally had the chance to be “introduced.”

thank goodness, my monday is done.

so on saturday we went to sofa lounge (yes, again) for their first saturday party. i have to say i like the friday crowd better, if there actually is a difference between friday people and saturday people. HELLA skinny bitches kept getting all up in my space. no really. HELLA. well actually, HELLA TIMES, SAME BITCHES. i never thought i would hear johnny cash’s “ring of fire” over a hip hop beat. if it was a recorded session, i definitely would have bought it. they also managed to play chicago’s “saturday in the park.” it was cool, but not as much fun as last time.

my boyfriend also ditched me, mid-dancefloor…

at this rate, i’m never gonna get out of school alive.

i’m the master of my own self-distruction…

shit, thats hella emo. fuck, excuse me.