kate+speaks

soooooo, you know you’re a design nerd when you think this is pretty funny:

i laughed so loud jeff came to see what it was all about.

i got a promotion today from unpaid design intern to student assitant graphic designer with some income. yeah i was doing 9 hours a week for zero dollars, it was worth it though, cause now i got that knowledge. what do some people know about that? i start first thing in ‘07 and this my first REAL design job. i’m coming up.

07 is gonna be a good year.

my total duration of sleep for the past thirty hours does cannot even add up to two and a half hours.

rob, vince, and i are offically walking dead.

two projects are done, but i never relax until grades are up.

its make or break cum laude this semester. i’m at 3.48, the only way it will go beyond a 3.5 is if i get three A-’s.

madness.

i-m-a-dying.

school is madness.

complete madness i tell you.

next thursday come soon.

so how ’bout those folks that TALK REALLY LOUD cause they want everybody knowing about their business?

i’m tired of that. i’m not 13, i’m 23… seek attention elsewhere.

GOOD LUCK SAN JOSE STATE, i know you guys have finals this week. you’re probably dying now, but at least you still don’t have to wait until next week like us.

on my end… i’m waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel on december 21st. my soul is tired as hell.

i noticed something at barnes & nobles today.

oprah’s smile is terrifying.

the #1 main reason i dislike communication over the internet…

YOU CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND ANYONE’S CONTEXT.

i’ve gotten into situations where someone always thinks i’m mad at them or the other way around. sarcasm can’t exist in plain words, you need some type of body language to specify it. body language is not available on the internet, smiley faces are, but the sarcastic face? it still needs some inventing.

this is why i do not do AIM. plus, if i did, i talk in nonsense, jumping from one subject to another so you wouldn’t really be able to understand me.

so anyways… i got a comment from a secret santa today…

“do you like your roommate. i know somebody who doesn’t.” followed by a question about the size of my left boob.

so ok… it could be the most random form of someone just trying to play around with me… but lets think about the context… #1. it is communication over a website dedicated to the speaking/picking secret santas between friends.

#2. all the secret santas are four of my closest girlfriends. so only one of them could have typed the comment/question.

so i replied in a defensive sense, cause the context of the joke (if it was) was stupid, actually, it did not have any context at all. it was out of nowhere… so yeah, thats kind of like an indicator that it was proposed to be a joke, but still. you can’t joke when there’s no emotion, everything is out in open air. how am i supposed to know that its not a fucked up way of someone trying to tell me they don’t like the man i’m eventually supposed to marry. YEAH, thats over-reaching… but still… there was no type of context for me to understand if it is a joking matter or not. i didn’t ask for bra’s either, so the boob thing doesn’t serve a purpose for any gift i was asking for.

it was random, and it was over the internet. it could mean anything, especially if it was not the time and place for a comment like that to be said.

and back to my point

COMMUNICATION OVER THE INTERNET IS STUPID.

[me saying this agressively in an ALL CAPS YELL. what.]

joke… its hard to joke over the internet, people don’t necessarily understand how you are trying to come across. especially if i can’t place a face to a voice.

also, the man is a very sensitive subject to me. I AM JEFF’S BIGGEST ADVOCATE. i know some people honestly do not like him. so a comment like that, although indirect or joking, still hits me close to home. when he finally asks me a serious question, i am going to say yes. i’m in deep shit with him, love that is. so pointing out that he has a hate-trail, isn’t a friendly suggestion, and… if there was any true indication that that comment had some kind of actual meaning… it was pretty fucked up.

i may be taking a simple comment way too far… but like i said. IT WAS OUT OF CONTEXT, and I CAN’T UNDERSTAND IT.

pms in full effect… can you feel it?

BREATHE.

so sunday i woke up from a nap at 7:30pm 4 hours later i’ve thrown up a total of 6 times. after midnight i check into a local emergency room. 1.5 liters of IV fluid and four hours later, i go home.

i tell you.. the stomach flu knows how to mess me up bad. its only today that i’m feeling 80% better. the only thing wrong is my appetite is not even close to what it should be. i can’t stomach very much food. other than that i can finally hold my head up without feeling weak and lightheaded.

i hate the stomach flu.

today i did something stupid. i attempted to reply to an email from jeff and ended up replying to my entire gphd class. it was corny and ended with “i love you butterbutt.” i have no idea why i decided to call him that, i never called him that before… but just today… i decided to be extra corny.

ugh. my life is so weird right now.

the semester is almost done.