kate+speaks

this year nobody is getting christmas gifts.

i’m tryin’ to see rockafeller center lit up with giant xmas trees until nye. my graduation trip has been post-poned.

its ok, i can wait…

after six years of college and working past a 3.5 gpa I DESERVE to take a trip after graduation.

i did not work that long or that hard just for a graduation trip, but after it all, i deserve one. its not selfish. if i have the means and the time i should go somewhere. somewhere i want to go.

my sister gets to explore all of freaking europe, she definitely deserves it, she finished college in 3.5 years and magna cum laude. no doubt. good for her.

you know what, sometimes i am selfish. i freely admit that. its MY TIME to do things for myself, i am not blessed with children yet, i don’t have to share my money, its all me, me, me. i am 23 years old without any hardcore responsiblities in life, so fuck it, i want to live.

i love my room mate. spring break is stupid because we are sleeping in separate houses for the week.

p.s. i was laughing the whole time i typed my last entry. BUT SOMETIMES, MY BOYFRIEND MAKES ME FEEL SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO UGLY. ask rob, jeff knows how to take the most unflattering pictures in the whole wide world. if you need a photographer for an “UGLY” shoot, then he could do it. he’s a good photographer as well, but i think he likes to make people look ugly so they don’t bother him to make them look good. keep ‘em down to earth and shit like that…. damn jeff.

sometimes i think jeff is crazy.

he takes the UGLIEST pictures of me, and then tells me i’m cute when i think its the ugliest shit ever.

he tells me i’m fat when i’m not, and when i was fat, he didn’t say anything.

he likes to point out all the physical traits i hate about myself, and they’re all apparently his favorites.

he is crazy. he is crazy and i hate him. sometimes i think his judgement is twisted. that’s it.

he’s just crazy.

uuggggggggggh. the truth: “cute” is sometimes codeword for “ugly.” did you know that?

i think i need this shirt:

its not the best designed tshirt, but the concept is good enough to represent.

so i know giving up mexican food, chocolate, and baked goods is nothing compared to the son of God spending fourty days in the desert… nothing… yeah, its no comparison…

but damn… how i miss burritos, tacos (REAL TACOS & BURRITOS), chocolate, and dessert.

i am super hungry right now.

i wouldn’t mind some cheap herseys kisses or m&ms right now.

why do girls with chicken legs want thick legs?

why do girls with thick legs want chicken legs?

i am genetically set with thick stems. sometimes i think they’re too thick. boys like that though i guess.

goodness. i sound like i’m in seventh grade. excuse me for a second.

i have time this summer to take a trip. the man is unavailable because he’s going to the motherland islands later this summer.

IF I HAD BALLS… SOME REAL BALLS… i could do this shit myself.

i deserve this after six years of school. i should take a trip.

…by myself…

hmmmmmmmmm.

i changed my mind…

my name is STILL catherine. i will apply for jobs as catherine. they can meet my alter ego later.

announcement:

from this day forward i will never buy cheap shoes again… that does not mean that i will not buy shoes that are on sale or got them for cheap. i am saying that i will no longer put cheap shoes on my feet.

there’s a difference. there seriously is…

spring break starts tomorrow.

i am currently living on a creative high that was jumpstarted at the dallas conference.

from this point until my portfolio is complete i vow to only let the following disrupt my designing:

- sleep (less than before)
- “the office”
– my family/jeff
– obligatory outings with friends [don't be offended, I PROMISE YOU GUYS I WILL BUY A ROUND OF DRINKS WITH MY FIRST PAYCHECK, AFTER I LAND MY FIRST DESIGN JOB OUT OF SCHOOL--BECAUSE OF MY PORTFOLIO. until then, i will be missing from any action if i can help it.]

during the roundtable sessions we spoke with an illustrator, he was well into his “golden years” and i knew he had a whole lot of experience to share, the best thing he gave us was this:

“people ask me all the time, ‘what’s your best project?’”
“i tell them, ‘the next project… the next project is the best project.’”

i love what i do.