kate+speaks

you will probably hear everyone saying this, but “across the universe” is beautiful.

i’m not much of a beatles fan myself (go ahead, throw darts at me), except for the fact that like most young folk my age–while growing up my pops banged the beatles out on weekend mornings. also, the man loves them and naturally i am more and more exposed to them.

anyways… the movie is beautiful, kind of trippy at some parts, but beautiful.

JOJO, the guitarist, is the BEST CHARACTER. You can hella feel the soul in his voice. “WHILE MY GUITAR GENTLY WEEPS” is the best.

anyways… go see it.

after all the crap i’ve been feeling for the past two weeks about finding a job this fortune cookie tab slips out of my business card holder:

“YOUR DREAMS ARE WORTH YOUR BEST EFFORTS TO ACHIEVE THEM.”

best fortune cookie ever.

so whats good?

season 4 of the office started, FINALLY. the jim&pam thing is insane to me. it was like the whole ross&rachel thing if anyone can relate.

i watch a lot of prime-time tv during my free time since i’m not killed by school work anymore. its kind of sad. i missed las vegas las night though, the side-man is beautiful (josh duhamel) [btw TRANSFORMERS 2 was recently announced, hopefully i get to see my captain lennox once again, even though he's a married man with a baby].

also, from about 11pm-2am i’m on the wii playing wii sims like a loser. i’m actually hella good at the game. mainly because all i do is make sure the town i’ve developed is running smoothly and the townspeople are happy. i just run around doing a lot of errands for everyone. basically its a game for organized people who plan their day right after they wake up. it will be the first game i have beaten in a long time.

still on the hunt for job opportunities… so far everyone worth pursuing seem to just be brushing me off. i really think i’m getting lied to these days. anyways the pms-emo stage is over so i’m keeping hope alive once again.

the greatest news is that the man has accepted a jr. designer position in the city with loomis group, and he is making bank, if i say so myself. we’re thinking about moving into our own place next year. hopefully by then i’ve landed a stable gig that pays well, this is the bay area after all.

planning a wedding, getting jobs with 401k & benefits, taking care of our business… growing up.

next blog: my friday in pictures

its weird how you can be any different emotion just based on the amount of certain chemicals in your body, and how you can supposedly alter this by ingesting chemicals.

or so they say….

announcement:

if i don’t get a chronicle fellowship i’m probably going to jump off a roof.

i’m NOT being emo. for all you know it could just be a dog house roof.

i’m never gonna get a job. [this is my blog and i can say whatever i want.]

my friday [in pictures]

accompanied the man to the city for an interview. i told him i’d use the camera so i did. hopefully i keep this up.

his interview was in some building here… while he was there i went to a park across the street.

the views:

breakfast. tazo green tea tastes so bad.

me. the end.

a vent

i am completely frustrated by the job search. i know i’ve only been at this for a month, and i’ve already found one job (although unpaid and i work only two days a week, a college jr. can do what i do, but probably not as good).

the difference between myself and regular college graduates is that i have a passion for the work i do. i’m not here to make $40k off the bat, fuck, i don’t even expect $20k. all i want is a chance for this shit, and honestly i did not do six years of school and finish with the portfolio i have–to land unpaid internships or to have doors closed in my face.

i’ve always known what i am worth. i’m a strong individual and i don’t settle for less. after a month the game is getting old and even though i know i have to have some sort of struggle post-graduation i don’t believe i deserve it.

i’m qualified. i have passion. i deserve responsibility and compensation.

yeah. yeah. we all got to start somewhere, but fuck it. i deserve more.

if you ask me… unpaid internships are the biggest load of bullshit i’ve ever heard.

you mean to tell me big ass corporations don’t have the means to pay people for work, they want it for free? bulllllllshit. they want you to work for free, even though they keep making money. its not like they’re non-profit or do pro-bono, nope, they’re fucking corporations, and they want you to work for free.

i’m not going off because i want money… its the principal of it all. how are you supposed to value yourself when a company doesn’t even see face-cash-value in what you do? bulllllllshit.

and i just keep getting in contact with email address after email address chasing jobs that might not even exist and every one is too busy to consider me or they stop at my resume just because it doesn’t say academy art or some shit. sometimes i just want to tell them i can do what they do. i’m capable–i can do it–and you should just hire me.

i’m not arrogant, i’m just confident that i can produce and handle my business.

ugh. this is getting tired. i’m so frustrated i can’t even think.

i’ll leave it at that. until then i’ll just keep chasing the dream.

saw the stupidest thing today while going through the newest-not-on-the-stands-yet issue of readymade. in an image i saw a piece of art that said “hella” but imagine for the “la” part, the artist/designer-or-whoever did the intersecting “LA” as in LA-dodgers.

whhhhaaaaaaat-tf. “hella” is NOT L.A. someone got their shit WRONG. sure some people down in so-fake use “hella” but its NORCAL all the way.

stupid.

yes, it seriously angered me.

hella is NOT freaking LA. its not.

ANNOUNCEMENT: I HIT OVER 300 REVIEWS ON MY YELP

workout or look at stuff i can’t buy online
workout or look at stuff i can’t buy online
workout or look at stuff i can’t buy online………..

ehhhhhhhhhhh…. look at stuff i can’t buy online.

damnit.