kate+speaks

I have dedicated this day to wedding plans. They are getting out of hand. I usually go to a local cafe, but opted to save the $4 I usually spend there and try someplace new. I went to the library. This one is pretty janky, out of date, and will be getting a remodeling soon. Its pretty deep in the city, I had to drive 35 blocks to get here. The one in our neighborhood is finishing up its renovation, opening on the 16th of next month.

Looks like I’ll be at the library a lot more often.

TOP FIVE LOVES

ONE. Mr. JTanhueco

TWO. Reyes la familia

Yes. This is a painting of my family harvesting fish. Its awesome and I love it, it will hang in my house when I am 90 years old and I will give it to my future babies (if kid sister doesn’t fight me for it).

THREE. Food

What you see here is probably the best burger and fries combination available on this planet, Shake Shack in NYC. There is nothing like it.

FOUR. Travel

I am thankful my parents instilled a sense of wanderlust in me.

FIVE. Design

The marriage of form & function

SIX. I forgot… FRIENDS!

When my life gets back on its normal track I must focus on one of my (top five) loves: DESIGN.

I miss you. I hope you still believe in me… I do what I can… I’ll never leave you.

I am in a blurrr. I am not sure what the real world feels like anymore. I am in a world of weddings, and gifts, and events, and exciting thought upon exciting thought.

I fear that August will be the most depressing time I will ever have to endure, not because of deep sadness but because my body will be completely drained of endorphins and will probably lose the ability to produce serotonin. I don’t think the human body is physically capable for handling the production of happy chemicals for so long.

I am on cloud nine thousand.

My return to the real world will be a hard and crashing experience. Especially if I still have not yet landed a full time gig.

Dun. dun. dun. [Enter ominous music here]

The most handsome dog on the mu’fuggin entire planet!

I have an entire folder on my computer’s desktop dedicated to photos of Shiba Inus, a whole folder I swear.

I got the crazy idea to buy one with wedding money last night, while I probably won’t go through with it, its a funny idea. Plus, when else can you really buy a friend?

….and he shall be named Musubi, if we get another dog down the line his or her hame will be Adobo or some other kind of food, Spumoni or something.

So last week…

I was freelancing for Benefit Cosmetics corporate. They got a good thing going over there and it was only a 20 minute commute for me, almost literally doorstep to doorstep. It was nice, I almost felt like a grown woman, but… it was only a taste. Ohh well.

Truthfully, I wouldn’t mind if the full-time job came after the wedding, but thats just me loving the time to plan freely and time to work out. Otherwise, I have no idea how full-time women, workout, and plan their weddings.

A few concepts I REALLY like:

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_ Shopping for items you don’t necessarily need, almost frivolously but not guilt inducing, and not via credit card.

_ My name on a printed business card, with the title “Graphic Designer.”

_ Getting up in at 6 AM to workout. I love the thought of that so much, but no… thats not going to happen.

Someday… one day… [ok bedtime...]

I’M EMPLOYED FOR A WEEK!

Ohh gosh I hope this lasts… My recruiter was able to place me only for a week, starting on Monday, with a really great company. I’ll reveal the company later during the week if all goes well, I’m not trying to jinx myself.

Thanks for your good thoughts!

Random….

But you ever get intimidated by gay guys cause they’re better at being feminine than you?

Happens to me all the time… No serious.

Ok so…. once upon a time I was a very scraggly (thats not a word, but it describes my old self) and self-conscience 12-19 year old girl. I really don’t think I understood who I was until I was 22. I didn’t know how to put on makeup, didn’t know how to pick my clothes (although I tried… ohh lord I tried), didn’t know how to pick a good haircut/color, I was a mess.

It was only these last few years that I have become comfortable and confident in my own skin.

I have been watching beauty videos as a hobby lately, because YouTube will teach you anything, anyways… I stumbled onto this little girl (she is only 13) but damn does she have the confidence to try to pull this off. When I was 13 I was so scared to put on flare jeans, so scared because I knew I had an ass, but I was afraid to let the shape show. Ohh man I was a sad little 13 year old girl, and I had a frizz-head, ohh gawhd, it was terrible. I was trying so hard to figure myself out but was so uncomfortable in the process.

This girl though… she has all the confidence in the world, despite her crazy lack of skills:

But you know what… I didn’t post this to hate, cause one day this little girl will grow up with crazy confidence and will probably turn out to be a great make up artist. Thats what happens when you start early, even if you do kind of really suck at first.