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• I will start my own design studio.
• I will buy only what I NEED and not WANT (obviously I will find a need for the things I want).
• I will go snowboarding and rock that shit. Unlike last time, I’m confident I’ve grown a pair of balls since then.
• I will turn 27 years old. Holy fugg.
• I will love & appreciate the husband MORE.
• I will lose the three lbs I gained since July (yes, I keep very close track) and hopefully lose five more on top of that.
• I will go back to the gym after work, and I will add weight resistance back into the regimen.
• I will be more productive, and less lazy.
• I will make more money than last year and I will SAVE.
• I will learn to drive a manual transmission, to the point where it will be second nature.
• I will decorate the new apartment so well that it could be featured on DesignSponge.
• I will be a master at organization.
• I will stick my foot into my mouth less, yet keep my opinions and still be me.
• I will completely savor every moment of quality time with my family.
• I will save new mental pictures of golden hours at locations I’ve not yet visited in my life.
• I will stay grounded but reach for the stars.
• I will go to church, not because I like or care to listen to what they say, but because its the only place where I can meditate and truly feel thankful for the life that was made for me.
• I will do it big.

So my last blog was super vague, I apologize. It was bratty and I wrote it out of annoyance.

The husband and I have decided to finally try to conceive a baby immediately after 2010, I have only told a few select folks, and even at that I really don’t like to talk about it much. I am just plain tired of people asking me “when are you planning to have a baby?” Gahhhhhhhhhhh.

People who I barely know ask me a question of which I feel is very personal. And I never really know what to answer or how to answer properly.

I guess its a compliment that people are excited for me and the husband to procreate. I mean… you never ask people you dislike when they plan on having a family, and there are just some people out there who should not breed children, lets just be honest with that.

But people…. in due time… in due time.

When I can finally get myself around the fact that I will completely dedicate myself to a fragile human being, I will be all in.

ALLLLLLLL IN.

Swear on my life.

Until then, its just me and the husband in 2010, and we’re gonna do it big, especially since we expect it to be our last year with just the two of us.

Trouf. (Truth)