Life lessons are funny, you don’t realize how important they are until you stop for a second and find them staring directly at you—trying to drill a hole into your brain. They are slightly easier to catch with maturity and age, albeit—slightly.
When I was younger I tried my absolute hardest to be accommodating, easily-liked, and on my best (if not ass-kissing) behavior. Its a bit pathetic, admitting to having such low-confidence back in the day, but its true. I used to chase people down to get their attention when I was never on their radar in the first place. I used to go out of my way to do people favors only to realize that my kindness would never be reciprocated. I used to pull compliments out of my ass just so I had something nice to say to someone, in hopes of maybe climbing the social ladder just a bit. Make no mistake, I’ve always been a nice/good girl, I had no intention of being fake, I was just always trying way too hard.
But now?
Now I absolutely DNGAF. I put in work for the relationships that mean something to me. I have enough SWAGU to realize I’m a queen with a crown, but never need to be treated like a princess. I only ask for the simple courtesy that I don’t get ignored. I will no longer chase people down after a text/email/message/invitation/yaddadadada goes unanswered—and please trust, they go unanswered quite frequently. I’ve learned my lesson.
I’m worth my weight in GOLD/PLATINUM/DIAMONDS and my friendship is genuine—so I’ll save it for the one’s who deserve it.
Truth.